shitposting, i dont really care. (okay, i do. but i think this is what i need)
the environment in this home is toxic, i dont feel at home with each passing second i feel like my guard goes up even higher, past my eyes or jumping height and i cant see what’s happening behind my wall and im terrified i dont want to be here i cannot be myself i am not productivev and i am worried i am scared i am upset.
best studying moment of the past week? when christian took me to the ultraquiet study room, those 2 hours was the most productive i was all month, in terms of research for PI and most at home and focused ive felt. what a strange incident. christian, of all people.